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What would happen if a woman took viagra?? [11 Aug 2005|11:46am]
[ mood | bitchy ]

well i'm bored and my brother's still whining about his haircut and stuff and it's suuuuure getting tiring.

still mad at alex... look:
ME(10:16:55 AM): I am so mad at you! You would go and say you would miss me and Kirstie so much and yet you don't even bother trying to stay in touch with us! What? are you too cool for us again?! If you had all these cool older friends then why did you even bother talking to us lowly people?? I really did try talking to you but you wouldn't even bother answering my IMs much. Are you just going to forget all about us now?
ME(10:18:57 AM): Yeah. That's what I thought.
Session concluded at 10:18:59 AM
ALEX (10:19:04 AM): No and not all my friends are older .
i said all of that mostly because i wanted a reaction from him. and i knew he was there and he wouldnt answer me cause he started typing something then stopped. yeah what kinda answer is that. and after he said that he stopped talking. just so he knows i blocked him and almost all the people on my buddy list.

duuude what would happen if girls took viagra?! would we magically grow penises???


KITTIES!! [11 Aug 2005|11:26am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

haha so bored today so look what i made! (dont know if it'll work)

i made it on jasc animation shop and i dunno if i wanna make the kitties blink right now. nobody steals this cause it even has my initials on the bottom!!


Just when it seemed like everything was going to be alright... [27 Jul 2005|10:42am]
[ mood | moody ]

-Bleh.. my cousin dumped her little brother at our house again. He's like 25 but he acts more immature than me!
-And my mom just gave him the big yellow and REALLY FLUFFY towel..xP
-I've been like....sad? depressed? lately.. like last night I had a really good cry and I think that really helped.. I haven't had a good cry for a while..
-I feel like sh!t!!
-My brother says I look high..I think I might be getting stupider.. like earlier.. i thought there was 12 hours in a day.. HAHAHA.. my eyes are all big and glazed over for some reason..

well im done here

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WHOO! [22 Jul 2005|09:58am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

tonite i went to my first battleground and kicked butt!! i returned our flage 7 times and killed 79 alliance!! WHOO!! i was ranked number one. I got such an adrenaline rush outta that


.. [20 Jul 2005|02:57am]
Eww.My bro is having another one of his mood swings.. I SWEAR HE'S CONSTANTLY PMSING!

[19 Jul 2005|03:19am]
[ mood | crazy ]

hahaha i made a new journal icon thingy!! OH OH LOOK ITS DOING A MOONWALK!! hahahhahaha


.. [15 Jul 2005|12:09pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]

its like i went into my state of depression again... gosh i hate this.. its just everybody's moving on and THEY'RE SO FRICKEN HAPPY! something i cant be and im just so jealous of.. it's pathetic how i mope around the whole day listen to whiny music because it just makes me feel better when i know people are as pathetic as me... i feel as if i need to change again.. its just that i hate changing but im constantly doing it.. and i always tell myself im gonna change for the better but i dont.. i get worse and worse but nobody knows.. keeping everything stuffed down isnt healthy for me and i just feel like i need to take it out on someone... so yeah i get all rebellious with my parents when they do the smallest thing... i really hate myself and what i've become..


and school's gonna start before i know it and im scared outta my mind! i feel so insecure and i have no self esteem right now.. actually i never had any... gosh.. my brother was right.. I AM FAKE because i act all tough but im not.. im BEYOND cowardly.. i just wanna curl up in a hole and wait for the world to end

guess what? harry potter and THBP has officially been out for 18 minutes!!! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO cant wait to read it and i also got WoW back.. so now i sit at my dad's computer all day HAHAHA im in love with that game and i just gained a level today DOUBLE WOOOOO FOR ME!

haha im gonna go cut my wrists and find some rope cause thats what those emo people do HAHAHA


(( see how i can just change moods like that?))


Isn't she beautiful all bloody and bruised.... [12 Jul 2005|09:37am]
Tonite, we were eating and my brother brought up that thing again about how I behave myself well when I'm around other people but is all .. well not well behaved.. when i'm IN THE COMFORT OF MY OWN FRICKEN HOME! Gosh! and i even admitted to it.. SOOOOOO?? I use to be all unbehaved in public but then my brother was all like " EW! behave yourself or i'll tell mom!!" OHHH !! NOT MOM! O.O Theres no fricken way to make him happy! And then he kept saying how i was all fake! "You talk behind people's back and stuff!" Um.. yeah... everybody does that when theyre mad and stuff!!

cant stand him

You're suffocating me.. [07 Jul 2005|09:51am]
[ mood | enraged ]

today sucked major ass..

I HATE MY "MOM" ( yeah i got so mad at her earlier that i flicked water on her from a car... yea yeah im being disrespectful and i wasnt trying to be a rebel by it either... its just that she pisses me off so badly!! i dont really regret doing it right now....)

its raining.. =]

You're suffocating me..


.. [06 Jul 2005|11:39am]
There are so many sick little fucks in this world. I really don't care if people don't believe in God, and I don't make fun what they believe in so it just pisses me off when they go and say sick things about God. And racism?! you "white people" aren't even white. you're a mix of all kind of things because of everybody coming to america so you have no right to say you're the "supreme race". the first people on earth werent even fucking white. so what if our skin color is different, it doesnt make us little freaks for you to poke and laugh at. i'm disappointed at what this world has become. i could spit out insult after insult right now but i choose to be better that.

tho i have to admit i havent been a good girl myself...

.. [06 Jul 2005|10:46am]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Jealousy's an ugly word, but you don't seem to care.
Converse behind my back, but now I'm here.
Need no one to comply with me through everone that I defeat.
Don't need you, fuck camaraderie, this rage will never go away.

Hatred fuels my blood, I'll burn ya down (you cant help me)
One king to watch the horseman fall, I'll fight 'til the end (I don't help you)
I can't trust anyone, see it in my eyes.
Now I can understand, it's sorrow that feeds your lies.

You're on my back when the water gets too deep for you to breathe.
A crutch for you that won't always be there.
Die in the dark another day, the fear in you is here to stay.
So keep the fuck away from me and learn to trust the words I say.

I can't trust anyone, witness and see it in my eyes.
Now I can understand, put faith in you for the last time.
It's sorrow that feeds your lies.

Run from me before I tear you down (be afraid)
You chose the wrong side (it feels so right)
I won't help you, let you rot away.
Run toward the light exposing your soul (we weon't be there by your side)
Salvation's dying (somebody's crying)
We're all gone in the end, sweet chile, we'll miss you.
No, so far away.

Falling away, can't buy back time.
Burned it down anyway.


[ mood | OMG ITS SPINNING! O.O ]

life sucks
snot rockets rule
i am so cool


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Me and the Chicken [04 Jul 2005|08:42am]
[ mood | working ]

Haha okay STORY TIME!!
My bro: Um.. I farted..

that was fricken funny!!
12 more days!!

Happy Independence day!!

I have nothing more to day!! haha MUCH LOVE! ¤PEACE!¤


MY DADDY'S CRAZY!! [03 Jul 2005|12:14pm]
[ mood | SMILEY I LOVE THEEEEE!! lol ]

haha today... we went to giant eagles!! haha you think that's no big deal right? WRONG! haha it was crazy!! My dad jumped on me EXPECTING me to give him a piggy back ride in giant eagles!! haha then he was screaming and yelling and grabbing everything he saw like a little kid!! WHOOO i felt so grown up then telling him NO NO NO!! haha hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm he sure cooked a delicious dinner for us!!

HEY YO!! IF THAT BITCH THAT LEFT THAT COMMENT IN HAYLEY'S JOURNAL IS READING THIS.. THEN FUCK YOU!! go ahead and leave a stupid comment bout tits in my back and how im so fucking retarded and cuss some more because cussin is cool ( haha thats why i doooooo itttt!!) hmm and go smoke some pot afterwards and go cut yourself.. wait no just go kill yourself cuz that shit is cool too!!much love to ya hun!!


.. [20 Jun 2005|10:02pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

i saw a homeless guy tonite and it just made me so sad.. he came into the hong kong and bought a buffet to go with his four dollars.. probably the only money he had.. he was carrying around this plastic bag which was probably carrying his only belongings...

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! [19 Jun 2005|10:15pm]
[ mood | creative ]

ewww! some little b!tch was saying there's RATS at our restaurant..WTF DOES SHE HAVE PROOF OF THAT?! our restaurant is ALOT cleaner than most so STFU.. and then she comes at EATs at our restaurant and complained bout HAIR in her food ( uhh maybe it was your hair was it black?!) and then got her food free.. so now her parents are supposively calling the health department WTF and then she has the guts to tell people not to eat there!! see my bro didnt go pick a fite with her but if it was me i wouldve fricken killed that b!tch!!

oh yeah! its my b-day today!! WHEEEE
thanks to everyone that wished me a happy birthday today which would include:
my daddy
auntie (and she was the only one who got me a present)
kirstie: H_aPp* Y___Bi`rT~ hDa/y To ----> L_eN* a~ HaPpY BiRtHdAy To LeNa ____HaPpY BiRtHdAy DeAr LeNa____ --~|HaPpY BiRtHdAy To YoUuUuU~!~!~!~!~
hayley:HAPPY BIRTHDAY LENA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i got the right day this time right?
adam:Happy Birthday!
bura(tara):HAPPY B-DAY HAPPY B-DAAAYY( congrats on the tatoo BTW )
michael:HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
brittany: Happy
Brithday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (yeah... took you awhile to get it but you did..)
skyler:ok..happy birthday
hm.. alot of yall stil owe me happy birthdays .. DONT WORRY ill give you till wednesday lol ^___~


00110011 [08 Jun 2005|06:20pm]
[ mood | numb ]

i lost my voice today... when i try to talk it comes out as a whisper... ugh....

Bloody tears,
The mockery of a masquerade
Silent screams,
The hateful part of dying
Pitiful dreams,
My escape from living
I'll dance; I'll dance,
My secret masquerade
I'll spin; I'll spin,
I could never catch you
And yet it's true,
That I could maybe want you
Dance with me?
Take me with my secret masquerade
Don't leave me,
Don't go now I've surrendered
Like the silver moon,
Beautiful and foreign to me
My secret masquerade,
Forever not mine to own.


.. [07 Jun 2005|08:32pm]
[ mood | ditzy ]

summer vacation has pretty much been just a blur haha..I DID ABSOLUTELY NOTHING HAHA! im going to johnstown maybe tomorrow and im going to nyc on monday.. yup... thats pretty much what i'll be doing for the whole summer


gahh [26 May 2005|02:18pm]
[ mood | sick ]

so miserable right now.. i was at school then i started getting really bad cramps then i got dizzy.. then i was bout ready to pass out so i went home.. yay for me :P.. and i layed in bed til my mommie came to check on me.. the midol is kickin in now.. gah.. everyone's day was probably great without me there HA HA...

well im suppose to be grounded from the computer so i better go laterrrrr!


... [24 May 2005|05:06pm]
[ mood | discontent ]

today was so boring....
gahh.. i wasnt feeling good this morning and kyle was gettng on my nerves and provoking me to do very evil stuff.. yes.. i did chase him into the lunch room and punched him a couple of times.....
lunch was funny.. haha me and caleb brown were like: (me) hey babe. (caleb) how are you doing? and stuff like that.. yup his new name is babe.. then cynthia was like: my sister said you could smoke a ciggarette through a straw" so i said: yeah of course! you just stick it in the butt!" then it got all silent and i said the last thing pretty loud.. and then i realized how wrong it sounded......... haha

other than that..
school was just stupid..
and when i got home..
mom started screaming at me..
what did i do?
absolutely nothing..

i was suppose to tell mrs.dickson i wasnt coming back next year but once i got in the office i got really scared haha.. she was really mean last time when i told her i didnt know if was coming back or not.. i almost cried.. gosh its so cold in my room and i think im gonna get some cake now.. yup imma pig! ew.. i just coughed up blood..

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